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Saturday, November 25, 2006

mish euu so much ><

tis few days really happened alot of tings sia .. thur went to mu wit my baobeii , aiko was not veri fun ,, not much ppl there .. sian ,, after tat we mit upp xiuwen then we went over to her hse n stay til afternoon then peii aiko go do facial omg fcking pain sia .. i really cry out sia .. hhaa .. after facial i went home changed n rest then at nite mit upp wit yenn , yanting , leon n jace go eat kah dao jian .. we chit-chat there joke ard then after awhile we all went home ler then i went over yenn's hse n slp .. really don wan to stay at home .. i wil tink of euu .. i really miss euu alot .. the days tat we used to be together alot of ppl say don always look back to the past .. must tink of the future .. but i really cant forget euu .. i really wish to be wit euu again .. but i noe it's not easy but i wil no matter how hard it ish .. haiz .. then stay at yenn hse play til 4+ then we went to slp then morni wake up i go home then darlinkg go facial .. then at nite mit her upp at her hse there then go her hse she go prepared .. wah damn dulan sia .. i was veri hungry so buy the oyster from her hse there queue up so long nvm stil forget my order argh~ then everyting was done we headed down to zouk .. omg! zouk full house sia cos got event kao then we headed to momo =.='' we was lyk blur n duno wat to do nvm then we walked to mos .. finally here ish better .. dancing time ~ haha .. put our bag then went to dance .. i feel tat my drinking ish nt veri good nw sia .. drink abit i feel seh .. haiz too long no drink ler some more i'm tired n kip tinking of euu .. we went to dance floor n dance .. alot of ppl squezee here n there then gt tis black guy kip dancing wit my darlinkg ,yenn he kipp touching miie n her sia i cant move back cos my back got one guy wearing spects dancing wit miie also .. ee .. so disgusting sia .. then i saw tis guy wah so attractive sia .. hahaa .. but onli for looking nvr tink of noeing anyone .. after tat was abit tired so went to find sofa n sit down .. =.='' first time i slp at mos .. haha.. last time at sparks i also slp sia .. i tink i veri powerful sia .. lol.. after awhile darlinkg ask miie go home ler we went to her hse there eat ler go home ler ..
i really mish euu alot ..
mish euu lyk crazy ..
the world noe i love euu so much ..
but euu jus reject my love ..
i'm really hurt , simply so hurt
when can we be 2gether once again
i promised my love for euu
will always be pure n true
我爱你。。

Posted @ [8:40 PM]

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

ii mish euu so much )):

today working at hg .. tml ish my last day here ler ..been here for a week but euu didnt even bother to come n see miie .. haiz .. i'm disappointed .. i'm no longer tat special someone in yr heart .. =(( end work ard 9+ i went home n changed .. after tat went over to mos to mit upp wit my baobeii , aiko n connie the bday gal .. but so sad tat aiko told miie tat my kor , melvin didnt turn upp cos his fren sprain the leg so cant go .. nvm .. we shall enjoyed ourself then .. we went to mos first then they decided to changed over to momo n club as the bday gal's fren ish celebrating wit her at momo .. we walked over there n put our tings then was there less then 3 hrs lyk dat , not even enjoying ourself fun enuff n dancing .. bday gal told us tat nid to go off ler cos the bf came to fetch her .. then kip asking us to go ler .. bth sia .. both miie n aiko veri pek chey .. so we went off wit her unhappily .. she say we go eat first .. we went over to kovan to mit upp wit bday gal's bf fren .. i duno wtf they trying to do .. they ask my baobeii , aiko to go over to their frenz car then the bday gal bf drive miie home .. i sense smth ish wrong n my baobeii sms miie told miie tat the guy ish not sending her home but other place .. wth .. so i go home n changed n wait for her msg wher ish she n i go over to rescue her ..lol.. sounds lyk a hero mann .. watever fck tat bday gal .. doing such shameless tings to someone euu call * best fren or sister .. they cheated my baobeii to hotel sia .. such shameless tings stil dare to do .. dont euu guys have some sense of shame ? euu do tat tings to yr frenz ar.. euu wont feel shameless ar .. i quickly take cab over to kovan n i didnt saw my baobeii i was so scared anyting happened to her .. almost wan to cry out .. n no ppl was there to help miie .. i tink of euu n i stil msg euu but euu didnt reply .. i was veri disappointed n sad cos when i nid someone there to help miie i really hope euu r always the one tat i can realie on .. finally baobeii ish okiie .. then mornin eat our breakfast at hg then i go work ler .. to bday gal msg - dont let us see euu outside we sure wack euu lyk a dog n become snake ar .. to tink euu cal tis how euu treat yr so called * best fren or sister end upp everyting euu blame her n say euu r not invovled n blame ish she ownself wan it pls le she didnt even noe n euu all cheat her there .. watever excuse euu say ish no use cos the truth ish there ..

Posted @ [7:20 PM]

Sunday, November 19, 2006

` i miishh euu so much )):

pass few days kipp going out cos i'm always tinking too much abt euu when i'm alone ..
ii tink tat i going crazy soonn .. too stress n alot of ting happenedd ..
recieved yr sms tat day really hurts miie so muchh .. telling miie tat ,
euu r not ready for any serious r/s yet n ask miie not to put hope on euu ..
being close fren ish better then couple which euu tink so ish true ..
means the chances of us being back together ish impossible ..
haha .. so silly of miie telling euu tat no matter wat happened i stil wait ..
maybe euu wil tink tat i'm so stubborn but i really wil wait for euu ..
onli cos of euu .. i realized my mistake ler after 1yr .. i'm so silly n stupid ..
really hate myself for not treasuring euu well .. it's my retribution of losing euu
cos euu wil find a better gal but end upp they stil hurt euu which make euu
feels tat r/s n love ish all a lie .. but i wil never gonna do tat to euu again ..
my love for euu now ish all true n i prove euu wrong ..
fri nite , i went to bishan to mit my baobeii aiko n her pals ..
we ton n played mahjong .. didnt slp for the whole nite ~_~
eyes gonna drop out sia .. haha .. then morn baobeii's chai send
miie to kovan n mit yenn then we went to airport n send jack off ..
he going back aus for a month after tat went to eat mac wit yenn , leon n simpuay
then went off to work ler .. so tired tat i kip falling aslp during work ..
lol'x.. then at nite mit upp deli n yenn for supper at chomp chomp ..
so nice the stingray n top shell .. both my favourite~
hahaa .. then we chit chat til 1+ then take cab go home ler ..
hmm .. got a new show 9:56 wil be out oin 23th dec ..
it;s a korean ghost show n i tiink it's nice hope tat euu wil go watch wit miie on sat ..
haiz .. tink euu really busy wit yr stuff n euu hardly wil spare abit time for miie ..
euu no longer lyk last time ler .. i'm no longer the precious benzhu in yr heart ler ..
alot of tings are more important in yr heart .. how i wish we r lyk last time ..
miss those days .. the way euu teasing miie , the hard days tat we haf gone tru ..
really so sweet n mermorable .. all those words n feelings r so hard to describle out to euu..
onli can blog in my blog to express how i feel .. cos euu wil never noe how i feeling rit now ..
becos of euu i already going mad soonn .. i going to lost my ownself ler ..
i'm sick in my mind ler .. onli euu da one who can cure miie .. haiz i really veri sad n lonely ~ ))=

ii really mish euu alot .. every night tinking of euu ..
really duno wat to do .. i'm scared to be alone at night in my room ..
scared of the lonliness euu gave miie .. without euu by myside i really lost ..
tat's y i kip going out to stop myself tinking so much ..
cos when i'm alone i wil tink abt the past .. the tings we haf done be4 ,
the places we gone to n alot of happy n sad mermories tat we haf gone tru ..
it really hurts miie alot .. ii'm really sorry to hurt euu so much ..
really regret of tings tat i haf done to hurt euu be4 ..
ii really wish euu wil be back to miie agaiin .. haiz .. i promise i'll never break yr heart again..

听到我的电话响了一生就暂停会不会是你
我总怀疑因为这原因心情不稳定我们之间的问题
是我不相信你敏感又多心怕你变了新因为爱你
害怕失去你爱的天气总是阴晴不定爱的情绪
也在欢笑中哭泣 (baby)响对你说生对不起
用错了方式去爱你因为我太在意(如果没有你)
我的世界只剩回忆每天只面对孤寂已来不及
再说我爱你自从那天分手后停不住泪滴
想念一个人能忘记自己让我爱你什么都愿意
如果能在遇见你　把你抱紧从此步分离决不放弃
我要告诉你 os:baby i'm sorry

Posted @ [4:55 PM]

Saturday, November 18, 2006

( ` my life ((:

sadness n hurts rushing tru my heart , soul n mind ..
i feel tat i'm so lost .. how shd i carry on wit myy life ..
after recieveing the msg euu told miie tat , euu wont haf a serious r/s anymre , ask miie not to put too much hope in euu
it's better for us to be close fren then couple reali makes my tears roll down..
euu don haf to say anyting jus treat as it's my retribution tat wat i shd get nw ,
for hurting euu so much n jus leave euu alone .. nth can mend yr heart anymre ..even if do , there wil always be a scar there .. i really hate myself ..whyy i shd haf left euu at first if not now euu wil not be hurt by so many gals ler ..i shd protect yr little heart n gif euu happiness n true love .. now everything ish so clear tat i can nvr turn back the time n onli can feel wit regrets n hatred of myself .. it's true tat ppl always say wait til the day euu lose the person tat euu love ish too late ler ..i have learn my lesson and i wil learn from it .. if i can be wit euu again i wil cherish it !! euu r my motivation to move on to be a better lover .. and i wil wait .. jus treat as i'm decieving myself tat euu wil be back to miie 1 day if i could touched yr heart ..i'm jus a stubborn n stupid gal .. but i jus onli wan euu be back to miie tat's wat i wan to ask for tat's all .. i wil be contented ler .. without euu i cant live on .. everyday ish lyk a sad day for miie cos without euu i cant smile again .. my smile ish gone without euu by my side .. hope euu can live happier then miie i wil always by yr side loving euu , giving euu my support n gif euu happiness if i can ..

hai you na men duo xiang shuo chu kou de hua
hai you na men duo xiang ting ni shuo de hua
wo qi qu wo men hai ne hui dao chong qian
wo dui ni de ai jiu xiang shi shang de da hai bu hui bian
wo hui duo zhou ni bu guan ni zai na li
wo fa xian wo wu fan li kai ni
tan shi ni yao ran wo deng tai duo jiu
chai hui hui dao wo de shen bian

Posted @ [3:50 PM]

Thursday, November 16, 2006

( ` my life ((:

now i noe tat some frenz should not be trusted .. they jus throw euu go n die .. now i learned how to be clever and wil never trust ppl easilyy .. and i noe whose myy true fren whose not .. and true fren wil never throw n see euu die .. true frenz are hard to find .. learned to treasure frenz ard euu .. ((:

Posted @ [5:50 PM]

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

( ` my life ((:

haiz .. i feel so sad now .. duno y .. i msg him n msn he also nvr reply miie .. iish him avoiding miie ?? i really veri sad tis few weeks .. i duno wat shd i do .. i felt lyk giving upp .. i wanted tok to someone but i duno who to turn to .. i really feel tat i such a failure .. yy didnt i cherish tings ard miie n jus let it leave away from miie .. myy heart really ache .. i cant concentrate on tings i doing .. i cant slp well at nite .. tearings kip on rolling down every nite when i tink of euu .. no appetitte to eat at all .. really verii stress n fan .. i really wat shd i do so i can get back euu .. ii really feel so hopeless .. life without euu really so lonely n hurting .. when i saw the caption euu wrote in frenster it makes miie feel how deeply i hurt euu so much last time .. the impression on yr face wit caption hurting faces n euu wrote love ish so unreasonable .. n euu are so lonely makes miie really veri hurt .. makes miie realised how bad i am to jus leave euu lyk dat .. and make euu suffering alone so much for a year .. how could i do such to hurt euu so deeply .. i really wan euu back by my side n i promise i nvr hurt euu anymore n i WILL cherish euu n treat euu good with all my wills .. gonna protect yr little heart n nvr let anyone hurt euu anymore .. I PROMISE ~ i duno wat i turn into if i living without euu .. after a yr then i realised wat i have lost no longer can come back to miie ler .. i really hope we wil have the chance to be back again .. maybe my frenz ish right wat yr is yrs , love cant be force .. BUT i believe tat fate ish in yr own hand .. euu have to after it if not it will be gone ..

* hao xiang ni ~ hao xiang bao ni ,
* hao xiang zai shuo yi chi wo ai ni ~!
* qing ni hui dao wo de shen bian hao ma ..
* du bu qi , wo aii nii ~

Posted @ [7:15 PM]

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

( ` my life ((:

jus reach home .. changed my blogskin again .. haha .. jus nw afternoon wake upp ard 12+pm then went to bath ler then went to chinatown do hair treatment then 4pluss 5 go over to hougang wait for barry then go town together mit myy baobeii n papa .. wah'x .. waited for barry nearly to 2 hrs sia .. first time i watied for someone so long .. haha .. he go help his brother take stock to him .. so tat's y delay til so long .. then my baobeii n papa at cine liao wah all wait lyk mad sia .. wait til pek chey sia .. then on the way to there barry's cashcard machine spoil sia then he cant go ERP then end up we jus park at wheelock's place there then walk to cine .. rch there 7+ movie don haf ler then we discussing abt wat movie to watch then endd up we decide go to ps n watch the convenant .. papa abit not happy cos we delay so late then stil duno decide wat movie we wan watch .. buy ler ticket miie n baobeii went to eat then papa go find his fren then baobeii , barry n miie was toking at the food court .. so happyy .. cos we stil tok lyk fren happily .. not lyk stranger lyk tat .. after tat we went up to watch movie ler .. the show nt bad lar jus tat duno really understand .. after movie barry send miie to mit yenn .. we go eat mee goreng then chit-chat awhile then go off ler .. then barry send miie home .. haiz .. i duno wtf i tinking lo .. haiyo .. on the way bak i was kip tinking alot of tings .. abt the past all the mermories .. i felt tat myself so inpatient felt lyk asking him for patch up but end upp i stil cant bring the courage to say .. i jus walk home saying a goodbye .. nvr even say thanks him all tat kao =.='' but at least i rch hm ler got msg him .. haiz .. maybe it's true wat liping n yenn told miie bah .. slowly take time lo .. slowly let him noe i stil care for him n i'm no longer the last time miie i haf changed to a better person .. no matter wat i always by his side for him ..

* every morning i wake upp , the first ting i do wil tink of euu ..
* every moments i tink of euu , i tink back abt our sweet n sad mermories ..
* loving euu n wantng euu back ish wat i live on wit myy life ..
* don wan my life live wit full of regret .. jus wan to gif euu happiness ,
* to mend wat i haf done to hurt yr little heart .. haiz .. i hope everyting wil not be too late ..
* no matter wat happeneds , i wil stil always by yr side for euu ..
* even though euu no longer love n care for miie lyk how euu did to miie last time ..
* but i'm stil waiting for the day euu wil be back ..
- waiting for euu -

Posted @ [6:15 PM]

Thursday, November 09, 2006

( ` my life ((:

The day euu left miie , i felt so lonely ..
i'm filled with regrets that i have hurt euu so much ..
seeing euu now being hurt by others , i feel so heartache ..
seeing euu so stress makes miie feel so hopeless n sad ..
makes miie kip on tinking wat shd i do to make euu not so stress ..

Alot of words n feelings tat ish undescrible ..
cos i feel tat regret ish too late .. cos i haf hurt euu too deep ..
i cant do anyting onli wish that euu wil be happier then miie ..
but no matter wat happened i will always be the one ,
beside euu standing n support euu .. tat's da only ting i could do ..

Every nite before i slp i would tink of euu ,
and the mermories tat we had before ..
my tears start rolling down n i cant help crying in my heart
it makes my mind tink clearly that ,
after 1 yr , euu are stil da best guy tat i could ever found
regret tat how stubborn i am never noe how to cherish euu
til the day i lose euu then i wake upp but it was too late ..

If only god can give miie one more chance ,
to get euu back , i promise i will never ever hurt euu anymore ..
and never let others hurt euu .. To give euu the best love n warmth
my love for euu wil never die and it wil kip on beating til my last breath
blame on my stubborn n childishness but i have grown up
learn to noe wat's cal regret n cherish .. GOD ~ pls gif mie one more chance to be wit him

I really feel so terrible now .. i duno y i miss him so much ..
see him getting hurt i feel so hurt too ..
i really cant help myself stop loving n tinking abt him
but the most terrible part ish i only can kip everyting inside my heart
not letting him noe cos i don wan him to stress ,
don wana let him tink tat i wanna hurt him cos ,
i jus hope tat i can be given another chance to mend my mistake
and to prove to him tat we r suitable for each other n we wil R forever ~

* Hen xiang shuo you ni shi xing fu de
*Hen xiang shuo wo de xing shi ni de
*Hen xiang shuo hui hao hao teng ni de
*Hen xiang shuo ai ni shi zhi u de
*Hen xiang shuo ni shi fou teng jian ler
*Hen xiang shuo wo men ke bu ke yi fu he

Posted @ [7:30 PM]

Sunday, November 05, 2006

( ` my life ((:

so tired jus reach home .. jus nw work at bedok then after work go mit nana n her bf at my hse there the roti-prata shop .. nana asked miie to go over her work place learned manicure n work also .. hmm .. it;s really a veri stress question cos i duno wat to do abt it .. cos tis job i working nw also work quite a long time ler.. ask miie leave nw also abit seh bu de wan .. so it's quite a hard decision .. haiz .. but manicure ish a job tat i long wan to work as de .. now gt chance i also wish tat i can learn .. haiz .. i veri fan ar .. also duno how to kai kou to liping .. wat to do .. so fan .. anybody there to listen to miie ma .. ii really veri confused .. suddenly feel so lonely .. hate tis feeling man .. i tink i shd take sum time to consider tis veri carefully .. cos it wil be a decision of my future path .. miie n nana also took pics .. uploaded it ler .. not veri nice cos i pop some pimple on my face :( n she also go rebond her hair ytd .. haha .. good nite .. gonna slp tml stil nid to work .. sian ~ =/
- to be continued -

Posted @ [6:15 PM]

Saturday, November 04, 2006

( ` my life ((:

YEA!! changed my blog skin to myy fav kangta ((:

tml stil nid to go work .. sian ~

i veri tired ><

Posted @ [6:30 PM]